I need to pay more attention to the calendar
My family has been behaving lately. Or at the very least mom is feeling fairly decent so that’s been a nice surprise. Though she still has those iffy days that get me keyed up because she’s so stubborn.
I had a pretty good streak of good days and then by Friday it just started to go downhill. Saturday I was getting antsy and I tried to ignore it. Sunday was not the best but I got through it mostly intact. Had some emotional moments and a bout of paranoia where I was pretty sure everyone hated me. And then Monday just set off the anxiety full force once I got to work and discovered all the sudden changes.
I do not do well with changes. And there were a LOT. And I’m pretty sure I freaked out my supervisor at one point with my panic mode. It really didn’t help that my first two hours were filled with people screaming at me. I can usually deal with them and let it go in one ear and out the other but it was not the ideal time and I was stressed out with all the new changes that I was learning as I went. Because who needs training when you can just flail about on your own? I don’t mind my job most days but when they just toss you into the deep end without any support it’s irritating. Thankfully I did not break out into hives which is how these things normally end.
Then last night was a super random bout of extreme giddiness and happiness and I was so awake and excited and inspired for everything but it was 1am.
And then I looked at the calendar and things just made so much more sense. Hormones are a bitch.